Every Beginnings End

Riv did a nice post on a final meeting. The timing is pretty good for me. I've had a pretty good selection of guys in my area for fun. I usually did not have a road trip go to waste. As time went on, I got irritated with some of their stupidities. A few went by the wayside. Others did stick around.

I've basically lost my last one in the last few weeks. I haven't heard from him at all. I see on his blog that he's having fun. I feel like I really can't bring anymore to the table that is special. It is a loss to me. He's been basically the only one that I've had sex with more than once.

He's been the one that has allowed me to explore my D/s side. He is a true pain sub. I enjoyed every minute we had. He taught me things about myself that I don't think I ever would have learned.

I really am starting to miss him. I wish him well and happiness.

I also heard from my very first fuck. Things were interesting with him on trying to keep contact. One of the things that I was afraid of was that he was "in love" still with his prior relationship. I made the deal with him that what has happened in the past needs to stay in the past and what happens with us is all that matters.

We chatted online the other day. It's been awhile and he told me he's been in contact with her. All I could say was ok. He didn't know how to take it. I just said what ever makes him happy, I'm happy with.

I have a feeling that was it for him.

The numbers are shrinking. The quality is increasing. That is the only bright side for now.